On the same note, I really feel that I identify well with the student demographics. I realize that I teach school in one of the poorest counties in the state and country. I just learned that one of my students lives in a house made out of plywood and lacks a door. I realize that many of my students come to school by means of a school bus picking them up in the middle of nowhere on the side of a dusty road. Their commute can be up to 2 hours. Today I realized that as I described the requirements for our current writing assignment, a process essay, that most students were having a hard time identifying with the example topics I gave. I was talking about writing a paper on topics like how to straighten your hair, how to wrap a Christmas present, how to make scrambled eggs, and other normal American processes. When I looked over the topics that students had come up with they were not from my world, but from theirs. For example, how to butcher a sheep, how to make turquoise jewelry, how to saddle a horse, and how to make frybread. It was a nice reminder of how much I love, love, love where I am from and how unique this teaching situation truly is.
I am in a denial stage about our new life. Let's be honest, if I am not thinking about the problem kids in my class, than I am most definitely thinking about New Zealand. My mind constantly wanders back to my ridiculously wonderful life of working for the church, running on the beach daily, and living in a genuinely exotic and modern place. When things are tough here it is easy to compare to other life stages. This is a new chapter for us and there are some roadblocks that have really tested us since we arrived. However, in the past 2 weeks our world has brightened in many ways. Jason has begun work and I have learned to establish a routine at work so that I do not neglect the most important part of my life.
I still feel like we are in a weird in-between world of becoming established and starting a family. We haven't put our roots down yet and seem to be the only people on earth who do not have children. We don't fit in with single people our age and we don't fit in with the kid toting couples either. I will be honest, it feels so good to not have kids.
All in all, we haven't quite settled into all of these changes. It will come. Just like it did in New Zealand.